Dil, Zubaan Aur Khamoshi — Part 1 (Ehsaas ka Aagaaz)

TEENAGE “THE TIME TO MAKE OR SPOIL”

BY: O.S.

(DEDICATED TO MY DEAR TEENAGE FRIENDS)

“” THIS STORY IS ALL ABOUT TEENAGE TIME AND I AM SURE IT IS THE TIME EVERY MATURE WANTS back TO DO WHAT THEY WANTED TO DO THAT TIME BUT CAN’T, DUE TO SOME CIRCUMSTANCES.””

(IT IS A STORY OF A BOY AND HIS FRIENDS AND I AM WRITING AS THE BOY)

Starting a bit earlier ....

A boy (RAJ) going to starts his class 2 studies. He was counted among the bright students of the class. He studies in a reputed school in Raigarh. He remains a class monitor in the new class too. As we all know that it is the time when people make friends without any profit (probably).

Raj, same as everyone insist on making friends he got many and actually whole class and that was the expense he actually pays at teenage. He always on 2nd, but no problem. The topper was his best friend. The same happens for three consecutive years and then a girl (Lali) entered in between me and my friend’s rank. I( RAJ) tried for two years but she got however 2-3 marks more. And then in half of class 6th, she moved to a new school.

In between this session, I make many friends some of them became best friends of mine.

Now moving to class 8th I became the whole and sole of the class everyone knows me but I wasn’t the topper. Here a girl comes to my class who was gaining fame rapidly.

Now it became the issue of prestige for boys and girls. The whole class divided into two groups and at every moment we started chasing each other this chase however converted into friendship. Now our class awarded as the best class in the school.

Our friendship grew stronger and stronger. Now teenage started its part I got five best friends and someone else. I was a frank and mischievous boy but follow strict rules to live. I always control my anger but everyone knows if it came then what happens. 

(HERE IS THE START OF TEENAGE LIFE SOMETHING RELATED TO PAST)

WHEN WE ARE ENJOYING OUR CLASS 9TH AND 10TH STUDIES OUR seniors do strange action on school terrace (including boys and girls). We felt awkward but we don’t ever try to interrupt but school authorities do. They called their parents and this happened in school. Many were suspended and many were warned. After 1-2 months on teacher's day, our enjoyment continues but as we are in class 10th we all thought that we left the school next year as we went out of Raigarh for engineering preparation. So we join seniors i.e. Bhaiya and Didies of 11th and 12th. Whatever we saw in films they tried to prove that real. Many of them were boyfriends and girlfriends. We didn’t realize why they are so. Coming back to teacher’s day we along with seniors e.i. 10,11,12 of our school making effort to make this teacher's day the most memorable day of everyone's life. We arranged a dance program, singing elocution and game for teachers. When program was at the last stage there was a continuous 17 boom blast on our school campus. Teachers scared, we too. Everyone out of the hall .now senior teachers were angry and becoming red hot. They dismissed the program and called each and everyone the next morning who were conducting the program. We all reached the principal’s office we were asked for the culprit. We don’t know who was that but we are sure they are from the senior side. We don’t answer and the result, we were suspended for one week.

Slowly we recognized them but it was too late and now it was the talk of the school.

Everyone enjoyed this talk and indirectly everyone knows who has done that. We all enjoyed that incident as it was the courageous work done (according to us). Now We were good friends of seniors, they tell us many mischief things they do and going to do. They tell us about their past one of whom told us his love story.  He told everything whatever he had done with her we were excited to know. We thought that their life was awesome this is the real meaning of life. With this thinking, we passed class 10th with a very nice CGP. we changed our mind to do preparation for IIT. We decided to go for attending a class on 11th and 12th so that we enjoy it. Many of my friends changed their school many in the same school and I was a good student told by parents to try for branded school. I tried and I got admission to their FOR brand along with my some friends (RUCHIK, VIVEK,ADITYA,PRAVEEN,ABHISHEK Y). My other friends some were in the previous(Atul, Prakash) and some were in parallel (Abhishek and Anand).

On the very first day of my 11th, class introduction day principal gathered everyone's heart but one guy sitting beside me was completely out of mind, yes he was drunken.

He was protected by his friends.

There I got another definition of friendship.

In these two years of studies, everything changed. My friends got new girlfriends to talk with them the whole night I can’t understand what they talk about.

I tried too to have a girlfriend and succeeded at the last of class 11th she was the one who left my previous school and whom I never chased but this time I succeeded. I was completely dedicated to my studies and promised myself I will never mix my studies with my love life and be in limit with my girlfriend.

In the final exam of 11th we all friends got a red mark in any one subject. But we were promoted to 12th as we are above average.  

I meet one of my old friends. He left the previous school in class 6th. Sagar , is one of my good friends. But something went wrong with him. According to me, he was on the wrong track. His friends always smokes and intended him too. They used to tell him that it is fashion, it is passion. They deepen him into the world of drugs. 

At first i thought it might be true and tried once but it was just a foolish thing that’s sit. Then i asked him why u don’t leave smoking? He answered “whenever i want i can.”. 

I told him to prove his statement then he again repeated same words. Then i told him to try once if it he succeeded then must inform me. He called me after one week and said “BHAI I CAN’T. My father knew about it and warned me too tell me what to do”. I replied him  “go to your friends.... (pause) ”   he cried and said “I can’t yaar please help me,  I realized they are not my friend you are. Bhai I can’t.  ”  . I ended the call and went to him I took him to his father and played the recording of my phone which is the last conversation between him and I. His father’s heart melt and he hugged his son and regretted me. He helped his son to come out of dig.

Now he is absolutely fine. On the other side my friend vivek topped the school in 12th 1st term examination. He was very good in mathematics but don’t have a girlfriend . some time we make fun of him. Another friend atul,  shubham many other scored good marks in there exams.

   

On the next side of the coin my love story goes very smoothly but one of my friend got full stop.

He started hating girls and started abusing them too. I asked him the reason he said “girls”. He got very poor marks in that exam and even he became angry soon and behaves differently. I heard many such breakups of my friends. These things disturbed them too much physically and mentally too. Many of them really can’t sleep at night. Some attempted for suicide. I don’t know why they do such thing. My girlfriend was completely different. She loves me too much and our love story becoming success full with respect to others. I always used to talk to my friends who were in such condition and I try to convenes them that the girl who left him wasn’t for him, for that ***** why to spoil your life, your family life. Many understood easily and many shouts on me but anywho i rescued my friends and they returned on the track. It took 5 mounths. There was a great lose of study in this time interval. Now they decided to track new and focus on studies. After all this happened one day my lovely girlfriend called me we talked whole night that we never leave each other and all that (reader may understand).

I always give my girlfriend an example to my friend that if you have a girlfriend then she must be like her.

1 week after she called me and said “ look i am not a girl of your type so end is here” i asked “what is going on ?”. she cried for a while and then said “my family is forcing me to do engagement after 12th board and marriage after graduation.” I was stacked for while then i said “do lie ”. she replied “don’t you dare ... i never speak lie with you” and she was true ... her parents did what they said and she accepted happily. Now it’s my turn... i can’t handle my emotion i don’t know how to express it I became completely disturbed and my boards exam notice arrives. I realized what i have done, nothing .what the druggy group (the students who smokes in passion to impress girls)

Have , nothing except worst reputation in society. They were bitten up several times by the local boys several times. 

I have only one month left for the boards I was completely confused what to do. However i managed my mind and concentrated in the exams and got result which shows worst performance ever. Then I looked myself were I have mistaken I got the result that this four year I was on the wrong path. I never blamed my girlfriend or the friend group who started this that . drugs and all we all have a living example of that bhaiya who discussed his love story. He still with her girlfriend and even he was in a reputed engineering college of India. I decided I will drop one year to repair my mistake. My family supported me so I dropped one year and join a coaching in tata. I am focused and trying my best but still something missing. I miss my 4 year life which I spoiled behind girls and smoking with friend. I have experienced the harmful effect of this so i aware my friend sagar not to be in that condition. It was the habit I opted in 10th and left in same year  as that time i started unusual thing to arrange money.

Let me tell you about vivek, anand,  atul,  shubham, abhishek, prakash, they all joined good ranked nit and everyone have a cute girlfriend. I think this is the perfect time. They told that they sometimes drinks also with their seniors. Now i realized there is a suitable time forever work.

(THEN WHAT ABOUT THAT BHAIYA)

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When I was in tata one day I was sitting in a cafe where I saw that bhaiya’s girlfriend. I waited for a while to recognize her. She was sitting there and sipping her coffee and staring out of the window. There were something wrapped in her blue silk scarf lay next to her handbag....

I went close and ask her “ how are you and what about your relationship”.

She recognised me and interacted with ease. What is their in your scarf, she ignored and started asking me about the studies. I asked again about bhaiya. This time her eyes were full of tears and she said indicating to the scarf “he is not with me but his blood.” I can’t understood anything. She again started looking out of the window. After a while there was a crowd of lady police arrested that didi.. i was in shock . Next day by means I came to know that she was raped many times by that bhaiya, he does that in 11th and spoil the life of didi. When she asked him for marriage he refused and then she lose her temper and SHE KILLED THAT basted. And she remembered for the mistake that she made in her teenage.

Her life show that mistakes during teenage life is not going to leave you without punishment...

Now I realised that I spoiled my years in wrong path because of the friends* and even I am in right path because of the friends. *friends who took you to the wrong path is not your friend they are your enemy. Remember. I case of that bhaiya his friends knows everything but they supported him, they were not his friend they played a role of yam for that bhaiya.

I was attracted by enjoyment which spoil 4 years of my life partially and one year completely. 

Lines for my friends:

Friends be in contact with your parents always , they will show you true and right path. Do not think that the boy who tell you that smoking or drinking or teasing girls and same is funny and in fashion , are your friends. A true friend always show you a correct path as Raj’s friends are, they are helping him in all possible ways they can for recovering from my past. 

Teenage is the time to make or spoil future